yeah.

yeah, i don’t think i’m the blogger type but i’ll still write here from time to time.  just to get things out of my chest.

i’m going through a really rough patch these past few months.  i fell OUT of love…  how come you ask?  this city, one of the most beautiful cities in the world, this unique part of history, this place… i don’t feel the same for it anymore.  things have been really rough and i’m really lonely.  all of my best friends are living either abroad or work too hard to see me.  my boyfriend of 5.5 years is also living in another city.  he is gone for the greater good i guess.  everything builds up to our future and i’m sure everything will be good once we can live in the same city.  i’m not one of those free spirits who can go on no matter where they are.  i used to be one, but i guess things have changed and the only thing i want to have in my life is peace.  and peaces comes with happiness and happiness, for me, lies where my loved ones are.  so i’m trying to get into a school where he is studying.  you can be a fabulous feminist and get really mad at me for doing something like this but you don’t have the right to judge me before you have all the facts and since this is impossible, you don’t have the right to judge me.  for your information, he was studying here before but things didn’t go well and shit happened. so he had to go for our future together.  he has to have a good education in order for us to be able to work at the same school in the future.  so, no worries…  we’ll manage.  anyways, i don’t really care where i study as long as i have the freedom to study what i want to study.

bye for now, i don’t feel like writing any more.

problems with commitment.

Did I mention I had problems with committing?  That goes for anything, I can be as scared as a mouse when I’m face to face with something that I have to commit to.  This happened to this poor blog of mine, which I had started with great expectations.  All of those expectations went down the drain, of course.  It’s been such a long time since I last wrote.  I remember deciding to keep this blog for film reviews that I intended to make so that I could be of some help to the people of the world when they wanted to see a film or maybe not feel alone in the world about their feelings and opinions of a film.  But I couldn’t manage to go further than just one film.  I’m sorry for being an inconsistent and unreliable source but I will try to write here as often as possible from now on.  I’m saying ‘I’ll try’  so this does not mean that I’m making any promises.  I should not make any promises, they give me panic attacks,hence I should avoid them as much as possible.  Maybe if I don’t feel like I ‘have to’ do something, I might as well do it without any push.  Things should come naturally, they should just feel right.  This way I can be happy with what I’m doing.

I want to share with the world.  I want to share my mind so that maybe thoughts in it won’t make me feel heaps heavier than I am.  I want to share with you, people of the world, and I want to know about you.  I want to know the people of this world one by one even if it takes me forever because I know that every single life on this earth is worth knowing.

After writing my very first blog, I got to thinking…  What is the point of writing a blog, what is it that causes this urge to share yourself with the world.  Then I think I kind of figured it out, I can at least say that I kind of know why I’m writing a blog.  I have always felt like sometimes it is easier to talk to someone who you hardly know about your troubles.  I don’t really know the reason why it feels more comforting talking to someone who I hardly know but it does.  I feel really heavy, like I have tons of baggage that I’m carrying on my back, when something really big happens and it doesn’t always feel right to talk to a friend.  I don’t want to hear what they have to say about what’s troubling me, nor do I want their advice.  Like recently…  I have made a new friend, and you will not believe how.  Through Facebook!!!  Yes, yes!  I did.  I actually thought I would never make a friend out of nowhere, but it seems like I have found a very good friend.  It’s impossible to communicate and get along with people these days, and when you find someone who is interesting enough to help you get away from the troubles of your mind, you should consider yourself lucky.

I have gone through a very sad experience recently…  This thing that happened changed the shift of my life in a very considerable way but I think I’m ready to talk about it without crying over it.  I thought that life as I know it was all gone but I snapped out of it.  I find it is always best to not to focus on the problem for too long.  Of course, with the shock of the events it is natural to be melancholic over them for a while but a person should snap out of that shock as soon as possible so that he/she can start focusing on the solution of the problem.  I’m at the focusing on the solution stage so I feel better now.  I know that it is not the end of the world, and I can get through anything if I’m strong enough to face them with the people who I love right beside me.

Anyways, this has been a very sentimental and heart to heart entry but I just felt like writing these lines so that you (whoever you are) know something very characteristic about me.

This is all for today…  I’m very tired because of the drama of the past few days.  It’s snowing and it has to stop soon, because I have to be at this seminar outside the city and if it doesn’t stop I can’t drive my iddy biddy car anywhere.

I hope I will write my next entry very soon and I hope it will be from another place, another town than this one…

Cheers!

leap year

“A leap year (or intercalary year) is a year containing one extra day (or, in the case of lunisolar calendars, a month) in order to keep thecalendar year synchronized with the astronomical or seasonal year.

For example, in the Gregorian calendar (common calendar), February in a leap year has 29 days instead of the usual 28 so the year lasts 366 days instead of the usual 365. Because seasons and astronomical events do not repeat in a whole number of days, a calendar that had the same number of days in each year would, over time, drift with respect to the event it was supposed to track. By occasionally inserting (orintercalating) an extra day or month into the year, the drift can be corrected. A year that is not a leap year is called a common year.”

This is what dear source of all knowledge(:) ) Wikipedia says about leap year.  Why I was curious what it means?  I recently watched a movie called Leap Year.  It can be considered as another cliché among its fellow romantic comedies but I think this one stands out a little bit.  To be fair, the locations of this movie were really amazing, I thought.  Most of the story takes place in Ireland and to be honest, it feels like a little vacation, when watching this movie, from all that big city films etc.

Besides the beautiful locations, I admit that seeing as Amy Adams was in one of the leading roles of the film, was another reason for me to watch this film.  I love Amy Adams and I think that she is a really talented actress.  And Matthew Goode is not that bad himself:)  You can remember him from Match Point.  He was the Tom Hewett character.  I don’t think we can have something bad to say about this talent as well.

All in all, I think Adams and Goode make a good match and they take us on a great journey into the natural beauties of Ireland.  I can safely recommend anyone to watch this film to take their minds of things, just relax and enjoy the ‘comedy’ in this romantic story.